Who are you now?

Have you ever just looked at a picture or in the mirror and felt a complete lack of identity? Like your mind doesn’t fit you anymore. You feel like a stranger to yourself and you can’t help but wonder if you were always like this.

It's difficult to explain, when you act one way one minute and the next, it's like it never happened. There's no consistency to you or your interests. You're reckless and do silly things, then when you look back, you have no idea why you did them. 

People label you. 'She's a looney' or 'she's crazy'. I'm not either, I'm ill and if you think I'm hard to cope with, how do you think I feel? Imagine how it would feel to have no idea who you are. There's no certainty of anything, you can't see the future because you can't even see who you are.

It's so fucking difficult and I can't explain it because no one does understands. No one can understand. Sure, you can relate maybe. But that's the thing, no one gets it, not unless it's happening to them.